GAS Featured Poet: Derek J. Brown

 

Derek J. Brown is a poet based in Glasgow, Scotland. He published his first book of poetry, A Strategy of Mirrors in Nov 2020. He is a member of The Glasgow Literary & Music Lounge at The Scotia Bar and likes to collaborate with musicians, namely Brian McFall . He also makes video poems often with fellow poet Dr. Jim Ferguson. He has collaborated with Ferguson on a book of poems titled Glasgow Jukebox  He has had poems published in various literary magazines including: The Red Skirt, The Fair-haired Review, The Banana Peel, The Singular Sock, The Scarlet Bow-tie, The Magic Muffin, The Hierophant, Gutter, The Hieroglyphic Hermit, Fathers and Daughters, The Sacred Mackerel, The Syd James Gazette, All or Nothing, The Magician's Scarf and various other literary magazines. He believes any form of completeness is ultimately deceptive. He considers his poetry to be a war against mankind's paucity of being.

Broken Days

In your cemetery eyes, sustained, in focus

Crumpled petals of an autumn lotus

Your blazing moon, your frozen tower

Aimless wreath, random flower

Broken days of wine and roses

Slender truth no mind proposes

Your passive fears, your violent hopes

Your kingdom fixed by supple ropes

A place I strive to breach, to enter

A final, peculiar, undying ember

Your knight of wands in his last uprising

Your magician's fall so unsurprising

Your swift rejection of earthly power

Fruits held sweet and yet so sour

I wait not for any bell to toll

I climb the slope of your erratic soul

Affections neither cold nor warm

Your trackless heart beats multiform

No question here of what love is

I'll be your prophet, your Orpheus

Cross your underworld, its false negations

Its guileful snares, its infestations

Your boneyard eyes, preserved, in focus

Crumpled petals of an autumn lotus.

The Truth

I've read Jack Kerouac, Ginsberg's Howl

I know the difference 'tween a glance and a scowl

You want to kill me, disembowel me

Throw my body in a dismal grave

Is the thirst you have one to be quenched

Your universe a slave, a sulphurous wench

The god you worship, what's he providing

Even the sheep (bless them) have gone into hiding

Liars travel by sturdy vessels

But truth, it carries its own credentials

No twisted cord it won't untangle

Nothing you build it can't dismantle

I'm no vagrant shadow that craves your light

Not some barren page on which you can write

Safe in your castle, you kiss your own loins

Hands complicit dispense worthless coins

But other hands light unnatural flames

Can extinguish faces, annihilate names

Turn a cobra deaf, blind a dragon's eye

Transform you into an ant or a fly

Keep your licorice piece in your candy bag

Call off your brute, pull down your flag

Shut your mouth, discard your pencil

Truth, it carries its own credentials.

Vespers

We listen to Vespers, we dream of Athos

His grand holy mountain 

No soul moves forward

Unless it is forced. It echoes within us

What slipped through our fingers

And yet, somehow, still lingers

Like post-mortem portraits, Greta Garbo

Expressions, monochromatic half-moons

Existence of evil such a curious comfort

My assailants swept under, I owe my small life

To illegitimate waves of monogamous oceans

I’ve spent time on planets constantly twilight

What does it mean to be part of this tragedy

A world inhabited by coarse veinless creatures 

Their aspects and hands cunningly disguised

Sometimes wounded but not destroyed

There are enemies here we can’t avoid

At last, we were free, in the sun’s rays

But freedom’s deceitful in multiple ways

We are still in a place where all love decays

The past is the present, it always has been

Where you and I covet one permanent kiss

A kiss that is more than it’s initial sensation

God speaks to people thru mouths of others

Some of us listen, we’ve no other choice

Not denizens of this city, its flesh or its bone

Our ears not tuned to its violins but our own

Nameless instruments concocting melodies

Between stone spaces and ambiguous glass

The stranger instincts are waiting to pass

A neutral sky breached by a legion of ravens

Criss-crossing each other’s elusive equations

That join then detach to then join again

Sentient formulas let loose from their slumber

While we enter dreams in which we must wake

But what does it mean to partake of a culture

A place populated by autonomous animals

Whose purified lips are so skilfully sealed

Their faces and palms seldom revealed

A riddle confounds that’s already been solved

To search for one word that equals all others

Is to seek out an entity that utters no language

And yet still possesses a mouth and a tongue

A countenance our eyes may never perceive

An object of truth our brains cannot grasp

Let us go on a journey through liminal realms

Within our patterns let us harness powers

It is the mind that keeps the world’s existence

Loneliness comes from that tiny awareness

And we walk the walkways, in our own ways

Inadequate vultures on Rachmaninov’s heart

Our eyes in sympathy with shadows that hide

Absorb sweet impurities of myth after myth

Simple light refractions feed off of each other

Let our sustenance be music, let art be our love.

A Personal Invitation (From A Psychic Notebook)

She passed me a personal invitation

Directly from her psychic notebook

While I knelt precariously between

Her lawless thighs, her Catholic eyes

Almost transposed me, her Illinois lips

Bore Gothic fruits, species I knew

Only from books. I sensed a process

The most exquisite corruption

A nectarous form of degradation

I felt a rush, a primal pressure

Her blend of Italian and Irish blood

Indecipherable lines of a secret history

Inscribed across her pulsating face

Like an excommunicated priest holding

The Cup of Christ I held with caution

Her heavenly head. She said, "kiss me"

And I wondered what it meant, what

It meant to her, as if a kiss from me

Could mean anything. Casablanca

Projected on a screen in my naive brain

But instead of going by time is betrayed

By its own seconds, minutes rebelling

In the name of romantic elimination

Ascension in vain to a perilous euphoria.

And so I kissed her and she kissed me

Yet the world staggered on, to the next

Sad but imperative new day of oblivion

And so this is the way it always has been

A dream of a dream that wasn't a dream

Cell upon cell, mutating, meticulous

A fugitive tenderness thrives in me still

An invitation from a psychic notebook.

GAS Featured Poet: Saloni Kaul

     Saloni Kaul, author and poet, first published at the age of ten, has stayed in print since on five continents, including eighteen states of the USA. As critic and columnist, Saloni has all of forty-five years years of being published. Saloni Kaul's first volume, a fifty poem collection was published in the USA in 2009. Subsequent volumes include Universal One and Essentials All. 

    She has been published recently in  Mad Swirl's Poetry Forum (contains ongoing Saloni Kaul poetry page), The Penwood Review, Scarlet Leaf Review, Blueline (State University of New York), OVI Magazine, Mantis (Stanford University), The Whimperbang Journal, The Imaginate (Rutger's University), Mystical Muse Poetry Magazine, The Charleston Anvil, The Treasure Chest, The Poetry Leaves Anthology and Exhibition, Arteidolia, Quail Bell Magazine, Harbinger Asylum and The Transcendent Zero Press and The Lullwater Review (Emory University of Atlanta). 

    In addition to performing poetry solo, Saloni Kaul collaborates with artists on installations and exhibitions revolving around her own poetry and with musicians and composers on live and recorded performances of poetry set to music.

ON EMBROIDERED SHAWL

 

Most hesitantly, unaffectedly,

In her unworldly-wise artless manner,

Without unnecessary fiddling, beating about the bush,

She spread out generously all her unspoken 

Hitherto closeted thoughts

On a timid line like a shawl,

Soon smoothening the creases uttered rough

With pauses unprepared, irresolute

Naively punctuating taut the unrehearsed speech,

As she spoke uninstructedly yet honestly

As though she may well have been insipidly logging

Far-flung distances wishy-washily

In a logbook most unsentimental,

Toying with their propinquity in contexts distant,

Bringing back and forth those adjoining zones

On the termed timed narrow gauge.

There is always a namby-pamby nearness

In narrow-minded constructed time, in spaces solitary

Where close kinship's liberally concerned

And approximations detailed scarcely count

When the point is minutely driven home.

Flabbergasted, as astounded 

As in a hair-raising encounter,

Skin tingling like nap fibres

Covering tiniest of trees 

Or on a downy fuzzy flannel scrap,

Our newly enlightened listener breathed in and responded 

Directly in this volley of words.

GAS Featured Artist: Jeff Taylor

Jeff Taylor lives with his wife and kids in Massachusetts where he is a union worker when he isn’t writing poems. Jeff has performed at universities, theaters, festivals, bars, coffee houses, and sidewalks across the east coast and is a member of the 2023 Lizard Lounge Slam Team. You can find his work in recent issues of The Bloodshed Review, BOMBFIRE, Oddball Magazine, Cajun Mutt, The Alien Buddha Get’s A Real Job vol.2, American Graveyard (Read or Green Books), and The New Generation Beats 2023 Anthology.

Tobacco & Hash

Jenn was a professional drunk

got killed by a rookie.

What a crap career is that anyway?

When Jenn & I were in Florida

we paid too much 

for a joint of tobacco and hash

the spliff got too wet to smoke

as we rain danced on the pier

cyclones twisting around us.

She overcame addiction

only to have her life ended

by someone who 

wasn’t there yet.

I like to think 

the woman

who caused the accident

was Jenn’s soulmate

they lived thousands of lives together

through thousands of universes 

weaving the possibilities

of two beings colliding.

The roar of this life 

reduced to the moment 

they floated toward each other

locking eyes before everything went black.

Jenn once told me

she wanted all her friends

to smoke her ashes

so we wouldn’t make 

the same mistakes she did.

What if we all smoked 

our dead friends' ashes?

Would there be an energy transference

reverberating across generations

raising our collective consciousness 

to new levels of possibility?

Would we take on the weight

of each other's lives?

Reduced To Art

I

build

towers

to watch you

ride horses

through our bed

I will

guild frames

for the pictures

of you

painted

on the inside

of my skin

I am raw for you

GAS: Poetry, Art and Music "Best of the Net" Nominations for 2024

Belinda Reads "Best of the Net" Poetry Nominations for 2024

Poets

Mark Saba:   May 18, 2023, Switching Glasses

Carlene M. Gadapee:  May 9, 2023, Coming Storms

Andrew Darlington:   December 29, 2022, The Time Heels, Insane No More

Toti O’Brian:  October 6, 2022, Heroin

Lana Hechtman Ayers:  August 16, 2022, Things You Will Learn About Me After It’s Too Late

Karen Warinsky:  April 26, 2023, Swimming in the Time of Kali Yuga

Creative NonFiction

Benito Vila:  December 8, 2022, Homage to Wavy Gravy

Su Zi:  September 18, 2022, On Literary Linage:  Considering JT Leroy

GAS Featured Poet: Peter Cashorali

 

"Peter is a queer psychotherapist, previously working in community mental health and HIV/AIDS, now in private practice in Portland and Los Angeles. He is the author of two books, Gay Fairy Tales (HarperSanFranciso 1995) and Gay Folk and Fairy Tales (Faber and Faber, 1997). He has lived through addiction, multiple bereavements and the transitions from youth to midlife and midlife to old age and believes you can too."

Sam

 

Where is this

You find yourself?

In our thoughts,

Wandering

Through long agos,

Rooms of sunlight

Decades dim

Or shocking-sharp

Because last week

But clearly not

What you expected,

Which was heaven

Made of fame,

Or nothing

And its deep embrace.

None of this

Was up to you.

You find yourself

In memory

Though not your own,

A guest, a caller

In the homes

Of who you knew,

Not knowing now

But being known.

GAS Featured Poet: Stephen House

 
Stephen House has won many awards and nominations as a poet, playwright, and actor. He’s had 20 plays produced with many published by Australian Plays Transform. He’s received several international literature residencies from The Australia Council for the Arts, and an Asialink India literature residency. He’s had two chapbooks published by ICOE Press Australia: real and unreal poetry and The Ajoona Guest House monologue. His next book drops soon. He performs his acclaimed monologues widely. Stephen’s play, Johnny Chico has been running in Spain for 4 years. 

 
dawn 
 
it was what i needed 
in my current darkness 
the dawn sunlight
rising behind tree
restoring me lost 
in a fragile ebb
of belief and happy
again waning
 
and so i held on 
with heartfelt gratitude
to the kind morning glow
accepted all 
being offered to me
without question
doubt
sadness or fear
 
when a grey cloud 
drifted into the light
i took that as a message
about obstacles 
how they arise in life
and always will 
so accept them
and not tumble down
 
after a moment 
the cloud 
gave way to sun
and once more 
i relished kind morning 
and saw how fast changes can occur
both to nature
and the human journey

i know Andy Warhol

i know Andy Warhol from his name and story of course but more so from an exhibition at the Milwaukee Art Museum that i went to in 2010 as i was in Chicago and decided to take a bus there to see it and it blew me away entirely and one aspect that did was that so much of me and my younger times felt like a part of the exhibition as the clothes and colors and trends and celebrity photos and feelings surrounding it kept drawing me back to a time before and i know i was not alone in feeling that as i kept seeing other people my age there and became aware of something that was pulling them into the show and i found that many of the people there were still embracing looks and styles from the represented era and i stayed at the exhibition for many hours and noticed that others did also and we smiled at each other and it seemed as if there was a shared experience of culture and the past between all of us 

and recently in 2023 Adelaide i went to an Andy Warhol exhibition and even though this was a different time in another country and a dissimilar exhibition those same feelings from thirteen years ago washed over me and a similar experience with other people there occurred and i knew my reality is my reality and that i know Andy Warhol and myself very well