F-150
After Sunday School today I was so absent
-minded as I walked home I walked clean by
my house, my father's house that is, that is
my parents' house but maybe my house, too,
I've lived there only ten years but still filled
it with a lot of life or all I could
in a decade's worth of time so how come
I walk right past without realizing
where the Hell I am? I was damned near down
-town by the time I caught myself gone too
far so I turned around but instead of
marching back home I froze in position
like a good little Christian soldier might
and awaited my next order but it
never came until I saw Miss Hooker
driving toward me and of course past and
if she'd wanted to run me over I'd
have helped her, helped her like a target does
the archer or shooter, at least sometimes,
by just standing there ready to take what
-ever's fired its way but Miss Hooker drove
her Ford F-150 right past me and smiled
and waved and slowed down and waved some
more but I didn't move even my face,
I just stood and gazed through her and saw
us together in the future, married
I mean, and that's a lot to see in just
a split-second but more than I've ever
seen before, don't ask me why I can't make
sense, I'm in too much love, what's wrong with that
is that I'm 10 to her 25 and
though we have a future we can't share it
like I'd like to and what I saw inside
her eyes was I saw myself being
buried and Miss Hooker standing over
me, crying like crazy, weeping it's called,
and me old but looking asleep but I'm
dead, I guess you had to be there
and I almost was but then I came back
from the dead or almost-dead and hurried
home and just barely avoided missing
Sunday dinner. Tuna casserole. Christ.