GAS Featured Poet: Jimmy Broccoli

Jimmy Broccoli is a Library Branch Manager by day and a published poet by night with a mission to inspire his readers through imaginative poetic storytelling. His work has been featured in several publications and his first collection of poems, “Damaged,” was released on Christmas Day 2021. He is the editor/collector for the poetry anthology, “Spotlight” and will be releasing his next collection of poems, “Rabbits,” on Halloween Day 2022. 2023 will welcome a second anthology, “Encore,” a children’s book, and his third collection of poems, Boy.  Jimmy enjoys walks on the beach and playing with puppies.

No Hay Banda (There is No Band)

 

Inspired by David Lynch’s “Mulholland Drive” – Club Silencio scene

 

“Watch out!”, I shout – as the deer leaps in front of the car –

we’re on a road that is near the Interstate (but local) –

We plunge head-on into the deer – I hear the thud – it’s loud –

and unforgettable –

“Stop”, I say! “Why?”, he asks –

“We hit a deer!”  - I tell him –

…and he doesn’t seem to be understanding what I am saying

 

No hay banda – there is no band

 

I hear the sweet soothing sound of the trumpet –

and soon realize it’s pre-recorded and synthesized –

That’s okay –

It plays on the car radio – and I listen to it play…

it’s beautiful –

and it’s okay that it isn’t real – there is no trumpet

 

No hay banda – there is no band

 

“Didn’t you see the deer?”, I ask exasperated –

“There was no deer” –

“How do you explain the blood on the front of the vehicle?”, I ask

“There is no blood – I’ll clean it all up tomorrow” –

the trumpet plays and I can hear it’s sound (real or imagined) –

it plays gently to my ears (whether trumpet or synthesized)

 

A sudden clap of thunder – “It’s not real”, he tells me –

“What does that even mean?”, I ask –

“it’s not thunder – it is a keyboard stroke imitating thunder” –

I pause

“But, I heard it” – “You heard what you wanted to hear – what you thought you heard”, he says –

“what you’re comfortable in hearing” -

I’m confused -

and I think about us hitting the deer –

 

No hay banda – there is no band

 

“I don’t speak Spanish”, I tell him

“The deer was in your imagination”, he tells me –

and I know he is mistaken or wrong –

“there is no blood on my vehicle” he tells me –

(and I think he has cleaned it off)

And my memory conjures thoughts of the deer leaping out in front of the car -

directly in front of us – we hit the deer

 

No hay banda – there is no band

 

In his vehicle – he is driving – we come across a stop sign –

In the middle of nowhere -

and he stops – a clarinet plays for us gently and smoothly

through the car speakers and I cannot tell if it is a real clarinet -

A triangle joins the symphony – and I hear it – but he doesn’t

– we continue through the deserted intersection –

as I listen to this symphony that may or may not be real

 

When there is no band – there is no conductor –

when there is no band – there is no meaning or understanding –

 

it’s an illusion

 

“Watch out!”, I shout, as the deer jumps in front of the car –

 

and there is no deer

 

…or perhaps there is

I Don’t Want to Go to Heaven

 

I don’t want to go to Heaven

I want to go where they went

 

(the time has not yet come, but it will)

 

“Doctor, I’ve lived an interesting life

And don’t regret a moment of living -

And I’m okay with moving on

I am loved – and, for that, I am thankful!

It is time for me to breathe one last time

and then never take another breath”

 

Then… (the time has not yet come, but it will)

 

The lines on the heart monitor flat line and the beeping becomes a solid tone

The nurses come running and my father’s face fills with tears

My sister gasps, turns away and, emotional, leaves the room for anyplace else

My best friend, sitting beside me, as I lay in the hospital bed –

smiles gently, her hand in mine and I, without sound, say goodbye…

 

Let me go, let me go, let me go

 

And in a blink – and just like that…

 

The bridge – it stands before me, magnificent!

It’s multi-colored –

exquisite and almost blinding in its opulence and beauty

Ahead is a land of endless chew toys and treats

With no interruptions to play time and snuggles

 

I hear barking and laughter beyond, yet near – and I smile,

as I take my first steps across the wooden planks beneath my feet

I then begin running – the reunion cannot happen fast enough!!!!!

In the distance I see them – I see them all!!!!!

Tails wagging, tongues hanging out –

 

And…and…happiness.

 

Uninterrupted happiness. Always and forever and ever.

______________

 

(the time has not yet come, but it will)

 

So, when I die, I ask the gods to kindly look away

and to pay me no mind

Let me go my own way

And allow me to continue to where I am meant to be

 

I don’t want to go to Heaven

I want to go where they went

 

GAS Featured Poet: Joseph Somoza

 

"27 years ago I used to teach English at NMSU and write poetry when I had time.  Since retiring, I get to write every day in my back yard and, afterwards, go get coffee with Jill, who’s been painting in her studio.  That’s the sweet life we somehow lucked on to."

Self-expression

 

My sinus is raspy so I try scratching it

with the back of my tongue.

There’s a slight breeze in the leaves

that might be the culprit,

though who can blame a breeze

for blowing?

It’s like expecting a dog

not to bark.

Everything has to express itself

or how would you know

what or who they are?

 

There’s this poem, for instance,

trying to express whatever

may come to mind—nothing much

that I know of so far this Saturday morning

sitting out here under a tree,

but maybe the tree will help draw me out

with his generous “ululation,” a word

that popped up just now,

though I’ll have to look it up.

 

Here in the back yard, under the sun, a breeze

blowing through the leaves, sounds

of the town all around, you feel

you’re at the center

of life, your own life included.

The mysterious Life-Source, the identity

of which, or whom, people debate,

must, ages ago, have expressed itself

by creating what slowly turned

into the world.

 

To The Source Of Energy

 

Daily am I permitted to come out

to the back yard

where the familiar locust trees wave

welcoming leafy fingers at me

and make restful shade pools to enter,

dwell in, and allow the mind to extend

through the senses and word-thoughts,

pass through the permeable air and

out to the blue infinity

some mornings marred only by rag-bits

floating seemingly close enough

to grab hold of—

 

and let the life-moments pass

before me slowly enough that I may

consider, appreciate, and shape them

one by one to the contours

of the body and mind gifted me

by ancestors eighty-one years ago

in a hillside farmhouse across the Atlantic,

a body and mind since developed

to a full person, here expressing

his gratitude.

 

                        —inspired by Robert Duncan’s

                                    “Often I Am Permitted

To Return To A Meadow”

 

GAS Featured Poet: Toti O’Brien

 

Toti O’Brien is the Italian Accordionist with the Irish Last Name. She is the author of Other Maidens (BlazeVOX, 2020), An Alphabet of Birds (Moonrise, 2020), In Her Terms (Cholla Needles, 2021), Pages of a Broken Diary (Pski’s Porch, 2022). 

HEROIN

 

And the closet where she would be shut to be

in total darkness and—like Galileo in the tower

—meditate on her sins.

And the sin that caused the punishment

was the same, each time—daring rebellion

against some perceived abuse.

 

The result was the closet—a radical form of

reclusion meant to weaken her hubris by sensorial

starving. So to speak. Soon, the darkness

that first, paradoxically, had blinded her, filled

itself with glare like will o’ wisps in a swamp,

like the halos of wandering ghosts.

 

In the closet, she didn’t repent. She calmed

down, her rage like a motor that—unplugged

from her counterpart, her opponent—slowly,

slowly, lost speed. The engine that had put her

on fire hushed itself, melting  with the very

beat of her heart.

 

And her brain, which had wound itself into

tiny loops of obsession, chewing onto the meager

bone of some right and wrong, some vague claim

of justice, finally went numb, lulled by its own

bitter song. Time vanished in the closet,

as space did.

 

Only her aching body, only her bruised soul

remained. Of release, she recalled nothing.

When was the door unlocked. If she heard

the key turn. If she dared trying the knob. If

the light outside made her blink, if she first

had to pee or looked for a kerchief, for water.

 

If she smelled dinner, and the smell suddenly

comforted her. If food made her forget.

If she could eat at all.

SHADOWS OF FIRE

 

Venus rose from the sea, they said. Of course, naked.

Long, curled hair, echoing the rippling of waves.

Perhaps, she had a mermaid tail (mythologies melt).

Like the Lady of Guadalupe, she stood on a crescent

(hers was abalone). Like that Mary, she niched in a

sort of vulva lined with mother of pearl, and was

haloed by cool layers of blue.

 

Athena rose dressed from the head (the brain) of her

father, Jupiter, king of gods. Dressed means with spear,

shield, armor—and clothes, underneath. Shoes were

on her feet. She looks marble in sculptures, but she

was splattered in blood, at least from the ax blow

that split open her father’s skull. She did not wash.

No need. She was bound to war.

 

When she stepped out of the mess of gray matter,

she marched on. She didn’t turn back, oblivious

already of the place she had come from. Soon

she was on horseback, and they called her Joan

the Maid. She donned a red tunic under the chain

mail, waved a red flag, her mount was harnessed

red—all preluding to her firing farewell.

 

She was seen afterwards, still in scarlet tunic,

playing Malinche. She spoke many tongues, and

too well. She went on, always marching westward

like a sun vainly looking for its resting place,

fated to constantly resurrect. They say she never

met her half-sister, the azure goddess,

or the pious mother of Christ.

 

She was not invited to family parties. Fairies missed

her baptism. No aunt demonstrated how to make

apple pie. She knew not the flavor of milk. At night,

she drank straight from the bottle as she leaned against

the iron rail of some bridge, listening to the roar of

water smashing on stone, catching (out of the corner

of her wide open eye) a meteor falling.

GAS Featured Poet: Bruce Whitacre

 

Bruce Whitacre's debut poetry collection, The Elk in the Glade: The World of Pioneer and Painter Jennie Hicks, is forthcoming from Crown Rock Media. His chapbook, Good Housekeeping, will be out in 2023 from Poets Wear Prada. His poems have appeared in American Journal of Poetry, Big City Lit, RFD, North of Oxford, Poets Wear Prada’s The Rainbow Project (nominated for Best of the Net), and World Literature Today.  His work is included in The Strategic Poet by Diane Lockward, Brownstone Poets 2021, and in the anthology, I Wanna be Loved by You: Poems on Marilyn Monroe More at www.brucewhitacre.com.

At the End of the Day

 

The wounded beast retracts

his claws and hangs his tongue

to lap the waters of the den

to lie in softness then.

 

Where do I bring my broken bones, cut lip, my need?

Beaten on the street — Wall Street, Main Street, Back Street—

after, a cold drink and a classic flick, the cracked spine of the latest

savored in the right chair—it was all for this.

 

For this the commute, the clothes, the long hours,

the wins and losses to the prides of the savannah.

Life begins and ends in this cave, this tree,

this realm where loved ones circle and unwind.

 

This is the pod from which the seed emerges,

this soil, this shade, this sunny spot

is the best shot I’ve got to thrive and not

be breakfast for blue jays.

 

Here is the ringing phone, the screen, news from outside,

intruding fist I cannot dodge.  So I choose

what I can: wallpaper, pillows, taps, mates, and say

I rule this howling world at the door I try to keep shut.

Remember to Live

 

 

Morning glories, hibiscus, rose of Sharon

summer blooms that last only seconds when cut

stand for the chain

wrapping the world around the stars and back:

 

My joy

fleeting but continuous

like a bird’s song

or the ship engine thrum

cruising the straits of Polynesia

ever present when I listen.

 

Even foaming volcanoes promise wider beaches.

 

To wake in this place

is to be a trout in a stream,

a bird on a branch,

steel tempered in forge

for the mystical epic.

 

Something is always coming.

  

GAS Featured Poet: Lennart Lundh

 Lennart Lundh is a poet, photographer, short-fictionist, and historian. His work has appeared internationally since 1965. An online search will reveal most of his books, other writings, and readings. It will also probably give you information on the late Swedish actor after whom he was reportedly named.

Short Essay Exam

 

If you water the shadow of a tree,

dark against the sun-white sidewalk,

what will grow there by your act?

 

And if you’re three years old,

and you water the shadow of a tree,

what will grow in you with the years?

 

And if you’ve grown, old but not concrete,

will you watch out the open window,

cheering other water, other shadows?

 

(after watching the 1996 short film Prelude, by Guy Sherwin)

 

 

Wake Field

 

I’m walking with a cat

in a fog-chilled graveyard

haunted through centuries.

This isn’t my cat,

they’re not my ghosts,

and they’re no more

interested in bothering me

than I am in being frightened.

Their elusive, flowing shapes

are wrapped in the mist,

unreflected in the damp

surfaces of stones and statues,

as their voices are lost among

the sounds of wind-tossed

leaves and my footsteps.

My ghosts don’t wait here,

occupied as they are by

inhabiting every heartbeat,

every thought that contains you.

 

(after the 1964 photograph “Wakefield, West Yorkshire”, by John Bulmer)

 

The Bride

 

She sits alone in her wedding gown.

 

She sits alone, a princess

whose prince changed his mind.

 

She sits alone as the sun sets

on her husband’s home, now hers,

coached but unsure of the future.

 

She sits alone on her wedding night,

her new husband called by his king,

leaving her to mourn without knowing

if he’ll return to her or be returned.

 

She sits alone with all the possibilities.

 

 

(after the 1903 painting by Wassily Kandinsky)

 

 

Working Backward

 

Far into a future we won’t see,

the star that binds all this will die.

 

With time, the sun that feeds us

will eat this planet like a snack.

 

Eventually, all traces we leave

will crumble back to their source.

 

Sooner or later, our kind will either

disappear or abandon the Earth.

 

After you and I are gone, this house

in which we are making love tonight

will be swallowed by fire or forest.

 

Or maybe not. But, for now, please

ignore the things beyond the curtains:

Hold me as if every word were true.

 

 

(after an unattributed photograph of an abandoned house in the Republic of Karelia, Russia)

 

On Literary Lineage: Considering JT Leroy by Su Zi

 

                                            

   A trilogy is a considerable artistic achievement. We ought to rightly salute such efforts to contribute to the culture, whether the culture of their time does so or not. In the canon of the literary arts, its critical history, there are lines of development for craft, for philosophy, for even the intermedia conversations of groups of artists that may or may not exist in face-to-face time.

    We who read, who read with knowledge of the literary arts, do more than taste a plot; a text exists both inside its time and in conversation with other texts, and a far more rich reading experience is to be had with awareness of these intertextual conversations. In consideration of a trilogy, the text continues this conversation with considerable commitment.

   And if the trilogy in question is taboo, this conversation between texts exists outside of the dominant culture of its creation. Many art forms have had entire genres that existed as taboo in their times and often beyond into history. Our current century has had a philosophical flux of both reconsideration of previously marginalized and taboo voices, and renewed efforts to silence them. At the release of the first volume (Sarah) in what is now a trilogy, the work of JT Leroy entered the arena of controversy, not for the text, but for the performance art that accompanied the publication: a controversy that still excites some emotion, but again not for the text itself.

    The folly of this lack of a formalistic view has historical antecedents dating back to mythic histories, and current culture is now just embracing the work of the last century that has previously been taboo. Since the trilogy’s first volume, first edition (Bloomsbury 2000) bridges the timeline of centuries and continues into those first years with the culminating edition (Harold’s End, Last Gasp, 2004), we who read ought to avail ourselves renewed consideration.

    While Albert Mobilio’s New York Times (2005) review does reference Genet and Selby, and Lindsey Novak’s Bomb Magazine interview does mention Wilde, the trilogy’s more overt antecedents seem to be somehow shadowed. The trilogy’s protagonist, Jeremiah in one work, Oliver in another, is a Dickensian child: a first-person point of view of disenfranchised denizens still not spoken of in polite company. However, there’s no sense of the dire and dirty here, but rather a comedic aspect: in Sarah, the protagonist is being fed steamed wild onions and compares that meal to his previously experienced “fine French shallots he sautés in a delicate saffron-infused lobster-chocolate-reduction sauce” (50), and it is the reader that realizes both meals are from truck stops. The elegant elaboration of Dickens is visible throughout the trilogy, with a certain timeless resonance:” there’s only the hum of moths batting against the caged-in light bulb in the middle of the row, crickets, and the low rumble of an isolated truck driving down Orange Blossom Trail” ( the heart is deceitful above all things 112). The streetwise cast aways of Dickens’ London have emigrated in the intervening time to American truck stops and strip clubs, and again to the street itself: “Everyone thought he was a vice cop when he started coming around, just cruising the block slowly in that big old silver Pontiac” (Harold’s End 9). Thus, a view of this trilogy only for the revisionist recontextualization of Dickens, it would position the work as post-modernism.

    Towards the last third of the twentieth century, deconstructed and taboo works found (and still find) a variety of genres available to them, but few were as potent as Punk. The rightful heir to the now-recently-re-esteemed Beat movement, Punk still has performing musicians. In the literary realm, there was the work of and now the namesake award for New York’s Kathy Acker. Jonathan Thornton described Acker’s work as’ “intentionally transgressive, engaging in shock tactics […]to engage with such issues as childhood trauma and sexual abuse” (tor.com); and although Acker died in late 1997, her namesake award is still given, the value of that literary approach recognized. In this trilogy of Dickensian-Ackerian gist, released within a handful of years in a continuing conversation of topic, of text, we who read are faced with three different publishers for one trilogy. That the Bloomsbury and Last Gasp editions can be located in hard bound format, with the Last Gasp edition being particularly lovely, these are still disparate volumes. While reconsideration of the work more appropriately recognizes it as postmodern, at least, and Punk for whenever that becomes as recognized as the Beats now are, the presentation of the trilogy overall is an overdue concern. For a press neither afraid of the taboo, the marginalized, or of work that poses critical considerations, this trio ought to be in a rightly deserved boxed set. For we who read, our dissimilar editions will be cherished, nonetheless.

Literary Saga of J.T. Leroy

Su Zi is a writer, poet and essayist who produces a handmade chapbook series called Red Mare. She has been a contributor to GAS from back when it was called Gypsy Art Show, more than a decade ago.

                     

Check out her author page on Amazon.